I miss you.

It's March 12, and I m still waiting "good news" frm KKM.Well, at least on the website saying that those who received 8 Jan-26 feb SPA offer letter will be enrolled in this e-housemen system. The email will be send to personal mailbox seems to be still in progress -..-

(ehouseman.moh.gov.my)

Well, at the meantime, of course, been bugging by other issue as well.It seems every household will have the troublemaker to give u a headache.Mine? My younger brother.
I ll keep praying for God's love and grace can touch his souls.But It seems he's the one who drifts away? Sad because I m not able to persuade/ convince my family members.

Other than that issue, having break at home too long can drive u crazy.Its like I've been stucked in the memories. My brain , my hippocampus( I assumed) recalls old memories.

I miss one of my batchmate.
I miss one of my classmate.
I miss the time we have studygroup together.
I miss the time when we talk and walk at the beach.
I miss we had lunch and sometimes dinner together.
I miss the time when we went oncall together.
I miss the time I laughed at your new hairstyle.
I miss the time when we joked about each other's appearance.
I miss the time when we fight for stupid little things.
I miss the time when we walk together in a shopping mall.
I miss the time you bought me rilakkum and I have to walk with it in shopping mall.
I miss the time when u worry and called me when Im hurting myself.
I miss the time you caress my hair in front of juniors.
I miss the time when u r hungry and I rushed downstairs n give u food.
I miss the time u pass me panadol & ponstan when i m having headache and menstrual pain.
I miss the time u encourage me when I feel I m dumb.
I miss those times.
Girl friend says, you fall in love with him.But Im clearly knowing that I wanna be your best friend and keep supporting u.

But time goes, we left untalk.U smile so bright since u left and carry on like none of these happen.
I keep quiet and drifting away and was hoping u will have happiness as I gave u too much unhappiness in ur life.

When we had graduation dinner, we never talk. When u walk away n towards the girl u admired n took photo,  I felt I was right.To leave u alone.I m a burden to u.U r happy without a friend like me.

During convocation, u smile like nothing happens.But I cant facing u. With our parents around, I just cant.And I know it will be the end of us. Its better we keep quiet and leave.Cuz I m a burden to u once.

You must be hating me so much.

I wanna say I m sorry.
And I miss you.My friend.

Too young, too dumb to realised I was once, blessed with one good friend.