It's my first post in this month , cuz I'm quite tired / x inspired to write anything for the last 2 week.
So now since it's raya holiday and I wanna relieve some issues while I'm doing my attachment in JB.
ELECTIVE POSTING : FORENSIC DEPARMTMENT HSI (PART ONE)
Okay, like this , I started my posting as elective student @ HSI, JB on 29 last month , in Forensic department. While waiting the form to filled in , so I was sitting AO and accidentally met an ex-kmj friend :) And as well as meeting new friends but...only me and my friend(ex-kmj) were the MOST senior medical student doing elective there @,@Then I was informed to go by my own to Forensic department after I got the letter need to summit to respective department's HOD. I got lost twice n kept asking the security guards in HSI..Dumb me =..=
Then finally managed myself to get into the department , I was been brought by Dr.Yazid , a 4 month experienced M.O. Forensic, HSI to do some introduction around there.And I met 4 of the M.O.s , ppk and M.A. s too.They are friendly and welcomed me to that department. But I haven't met the HOD yet on my first day so I'm basiccaly don't know what to do and one of friend was doing forensic elective posting at the same time (but different hospital) I would be to need my own laptop.Guess what? Dr.Yazid did asked me to bring so I could do some reading by using e-book/PDF book while there's no case in the department.
Maybe people thought they are free most of time (can't deny it @.@) But mostly they are doing their case reports dat accumulates for long time.They need to release case report a.s.a.p. as this is consider medico-legal thingy.It's better keep anything safe. As,HOD said "You'll never know when u 'll die, so everything should be ready as backup." On the first day , I ' m mote like to introduce myself to all staffs there. Basically, chit chat.
Plus , the drs there... were all male drs...I'm the only student doing attachment there and the only female in the department that day (HOD and science officer were not around that time). Met , Dr. Hazlin , a new M.O. (2 weeks after his h.o. ) garduated from UKM introduced me about Forensic stuffs and application of H.O. in HSI and about HSI. And basically on the first day I was thought back home by myself by bus..but UNEXPECTEDLY, I got lost again in hospital >///< (Yeah , I feel I wanna slap myself either!) And get so LUCKY , my old friend of mine smsed me there's no public transport (which is been cancelled route to hospital for long time ago when I was away , study in T'ganu, shit!)
I've waited my dad after work n come to fetch me, which is 4 hours after 5pm I leave HSI. Damn sucks ending of the first day!
On my second day , I started to bring my laptop and got some e-books, all about forensic pathology , RTA books and stuffs , so I start my reading.And then I was called to the HOD office and I was expecting it too , so I bring along the letter i received earlier from Administration Office(AO) and Dr. Rohayu is a kind and welcoming my presence to the department and once again introduce the department of her pride :) She was actually a surgeon which doesn't want a robotic life in OT and enjoyed forensic previously exposure , so she get into deep in forensic and currently she is forensic anthropologist :)) (Study about bones).Few day laters I got a chance to see a case, MI patient (MI = Myocardial infarction = heart attack) in the post mortem room. Dr.Hazlin conducted the post mortem process and basically I'm observing the case first for the first time in HSI XDD. Asked many anatomy questions , some were answered and some I couldnt
--> Neuroanatomy...OMG, dat's my killer point! Shit.I swear gonna study it!
So I went and revise the circle of Willis , brain lobes , STN and the skull...gosh...forensic is a place to polish my rusty anatomy knowledge, i was too focused on medicine @.@~
But thanks again to all drs willing to teach and guide me during the posting.Dr.Chong giving some tips of study too. Dr. Aaron discussed terms in forensic commonly used.Hehe :)
On the second week , I started to dare myself to touch the organs.It doesn't feel the same with d specimen available in campus.It's very REAL. The softness of spleen , the firmness of liver , crispy atheroma in the aorta and creps of lungs! Wohoo <3 Girls out there may like mmake up and shopping makes them happy but for me , these things fascinates me more! (I do like shopping too but u nvr know when u see with ur own eyes!) And I remembered the roughness of infarcted area in the MI patient. I helped out the drs in charge to weight each organs.Wonder if I could learn the technique of sutures next week (my last week)? Should grab the oppoturnity! "Be more proactive " --> Quoted from HOD Forensic HSI :))
P/S : Because of inconvenience of going to HSI every morning from my house , so parents decided to let me stay over in relative's house , just nearby to HSI , 15min distance.And I travel there by taxi.Sounds rich? =..= I dont know how parents think about it but they never trusted me. I was very upset for they broke the promise to let me learn to and drive to HSI. I'm very disappointed about it. I didn't speak to my parents for 1 whole night after the incident til they decided to let me stay over relative's house. I mean, why and how they supposed to lock me in the house without going out from the house at all and not mixing around with my friends? HEY , I M NOT BORN TO BE A HOUSEWIFE , JUST SITTING AT HOME AND DO ALL HOUSEWORK, I DON'T WANT SUCH LIFE!During the weekend , they came and fetch me.At home , they start to nag why I wasn't do housework to help them as if i doesn't exist and just keep listen to songs , on laptop and do my readings. I did my job , doesn't I deserve to have my own little time to watch an hour drama? Aren't they supposed to know and get ready about their daughter is not housewife type but a workaholic type? When i was just about to going out with a friend , just to have a gathering and dad yelled over the house and start about his nagging about money and stuffs. COME ON , YOU CAN BUY UR CIGARRETTES WHICH COST RM15 PER PACK AND U BOUGHT FOR 2 PACK PER DAY , YOU DIDNT CALCULATE HOW MUCH U HAVE SPENT AND I WAS JUST BOUT TO HANG OUT WITH A FRIEND AND HAVE A TEA WHICH COST RM10 ?! WHERE IS THE LOGIC?! No financial problem so don't worry but just illogical thinking of parents want to lock their daughter for her SAFETY =..= the more u forbidden something , I will be more rebel.
I had enough about lies and stupid stuffs I had in T'ganu. and the same thing happened at home, I NEED PEACE! It's better for me stay over maidam, T'ganu and do my attachment there.At the beginning , it was parents decision , was so sure that there is no transport problem and allow me to drive when im going to HSI and NOW WHAT?!
I'm more unstable mood than I'm in T'ganu@.@ As long I didn't meet that few people and less contact with people I least like to handle , my life will be much peaceful in T'ganu. Church at there, the aunty is nice and some students.Just dislike of some's attitude.I 'm doing what I should do and carry my responsibility and it's your failure that makes doesn't feel belongs to that church and don't gimme that look when I'm around the church. I like my own religion but I hate people who pretend to be religious but their own attitude sucks.Even God doesn't judge me and who are you to judge me?
I feel I doesn't like to go back home anymore.Home doesn't feel like home.It's just...money talks.
More than a week at home ,I'm already feel sucks. Maybe some of out there like to have a life like mine, "so called happy family". If ur parents r control freak like mine and having a brother just care about himself and expecting money just enter his pocket, Im sorry then!
I feel hospital is more like my home than "home-home" now. Planning to go FAR AWAY from home during working so I could have my own life
---to be continue
