CNY

Aisehh...cny came today.Wohoo...plenty of mandarin orange brought by little bro given free frm his office hahaha XD

gonna munch dat

Other than dat, lurve bak gua SO MUCHIE ... Wished I could have some tomorrow

The funny thing is : my juniors still thought i'm a chinese n celebrating cny...-.- i dont blame them.just awkward XD

Frustrated,dissapointed or enlightment?

When getting to know my batch is also involved in ,so called " e-HO" which gonna launch in march, I hate it.I m upset.I m dissapointed. I think whole of my life - always been involved any revolution of political changes eg english for math & science , first batch of UniSZA and now...first experimental element in this e -HO.

Well good thing is I can reconsider my choices of hospital.Maybe God dont want me to go those i applied?@.@
HAHA, funny (or not -.-)

But I've waited for so LONG, 6 month period. And at the same time, who grads frm overseas or private uni managed to get job before me.I m really unsatisfied with this.

I hate those studies overseas and come back to fight a place with local students.I seriously HATE YOU. Whoever read this & get offended --up to u? I dont care, I just hate u

Now what's left for me is this thingy. I really need to get into latest intake. No matter what.

Meanwhile, refreshing knowledge. Since skills all gone. After 6 month.

Grown-ups

Part of growing up.

I feel so lonely.Empty. Most of those same batches with me...already working for 6 month?

I'm still here....sigh.

Some people cant just keep quiet and asking where I get posted.I fed up.I wished I could smash cake on their face.

Im thankful for being concern ut since u knew since the last time I told, dont ask again okay? *pinky finger*

=.=

I will announce when I get posted , like POSTING EVERY SOCIAL MEDIA ....

Happy Valentine :)

Well, congrats myself - Happy Single Valentine's day! ^_^ (hoooraaaayyy!)

I wrote a letter to myself and decided to keep it in my box.Some day I read it again :)

(In Mandarin though, so I decided to share this letter with someone else out there, you're not alone.I've been hurt too.I'm not strong as I look)

Years  back, I cried.
I cried terribly bad.
The painful moment in my life.Quarter of my life.Painful , ones of them.
Years back , I sweared I never fall in love again.
His name is just like a tattoo , it was planted in deepest in my mind.I remember.Always.
Difference make us apart.
I forgot how long I've  been crying for the same reason and the same person.It's like the broken "rewind" button , keep replaying in my head , in my life.
I keep pushing the limits, I study hard and study occupying my head so I can forget him momentarily.Just a moment.
because I fear of "not eing good enough". For some people.
Few years later , he knew from friend of us he was the blame. "Sorry" , he said.Indirectly.
As if  "sorry" could make things together back in pieces, make broken me put into one piece.Never.
I ain't good enough , I m weak as I'm just normal human being .I can't forgive him. I never will.

Some time, I learnt one thing from this incredibly genius flirtatious bastard. He gives the word -- magical. "Slap" me , awakens me from the dark dream. We can't. We can't be together.We are not for each other.
I admit , I used to check out his facebook.Twice.Including yesterday -- thrice. I used to be getting hurt afterwards. Now(yesterday) 3.20am 13/2/2015 --The last time I visit his page.Nothing.Happy? Sadness?Angry?Grumpy? No more.
The feeling of winning? Yes. I'm a doctor.He is just a car salesman.He used to stab my pride.torn into pieces.Now? I won. Girlfriend? Ain't hot or pretty as well.(Well I m a human being, Im just saying what I want.)

but, I regret. Im totally regretful. I let go of many chances.I ruin the hands wanna hold mine.10 years.I feel I wanna slap myself if I could rewind the time.
I used to say to dat genius bastard , " I wanna stand in front of him and say "I win , u lose." ut now I dont feel like to do it anymore.Cuz I know, for so long, he is already LOSING ME.

See no more, nicholas eng jun xiang.

I wish myself and all the single ladies will find their true happiness soon :) xoxo

*baked myself a high calorie dinner for tonight - pizza wrap*

Happy birthday dad!

Wished I could buy an expensive gift to him.But i have not much left before HOship....stress.
Happy birthday, dad!

Tasting and testing patience

It's hopeless to work this month.I'm upset.VERY upset.
Well, I have work harder to polish my examinations.Console myself.Try to believe that.