#Midnight hour - running away
" And try, and try to understand me
And try to understand what I say when I say I can't stay
I, I'm moving on from this place
I'm leaving and I won't quit running away."
When the place get so quiet and I can't sleep, the box of memories about certain person will open up at this time. Just say ,I m the type of hard letting go and my coping mechanism is..running away.
Still the first person , the first guy taught me there's love exist influenced me the most.
During secondary school, after the break up, I've cried.I didn't let parents know about it.Just depressed mood.Whenever, whatever I did and wherever I am , I 'll remember everything he said.I put too much in it.Although it's just short time we have been together, but it hurts.
Now, when I recalled it yesterday, it still ache somewhere in my heart.After the break up,I did something stupid but it's true in my life : I swear to God , I wont fall in love again and devoted whatever He let me to do(at that time is studying). And I hold the promise , till deep into bone and I'm been single all the time.I feels touched when 2 person in the world, come together and decided to get married.Attended the wedding today, may God bless the couple :)
I think either God answers my prayer or it's just my harden-heart , so I wont feel love anymore.
Remember the first post of elective posting in Forensic department?
Let's continue!
Forensic posting part 2 XDD
So, weekdays staying over relative's house during attachment and meanwhile weekends I 'll back to home, to exchange the clothes , books and stuffs. I wonder if someone noticed that , when there's a baby at home, the smell of milk and...diapers are everywhere...it's just my OCD personality and I dont like the smell attach to me,so I'll wash everything when I go back home. @.@ It doesnt related to I like paeds. Paeds ,Im treating pt and play wif them but I'm not literally take care of the kid's personal daily need, so I rationalise it to be a normal reaction XDD
Few days ago , the students studied in Russia , Diana , Chua and Wong had finished their clinical attachment, gonna miss them much :) We had lunch together and chit chat XD And on their last day, Diana, a cute gal from Moscow University , gave me a surprise cake , Orea cheese cake! (I think @.@) Hehe,thanks gal , wish u all the best for ur future undertaking! <3 <3
Just left me and another USM student, Shalene ,huhu~ Well , sometimes our recess is different time so I get my own lunch when she's still busy with ward round :) And joined one of the CME of the week presented by 2 houseman.
#CME ongoing :)
When one of the week, I reached home from aunt's place.I saw this! Tadaa! A friend of mine sent me a post card from taiwan XD Muahaha, thanks a lot for the wishes.Let us grow up together , spiritually <3
Miss her a lot :')
Few friends are still contactable when this time of age.People working , have own family and career.Me? Still stuck in medical schoo ( It's almost end, fighto!)
Promised myself not gonna drink caffiene stuff and I ended up buying this together with my taco pie(freshly baked) =..= Caffiene stuff makes me tachycardic and keep rushing to toilet >///< , hate it!
Before I ended forensic , received this letter from JKN too! As previously my university set the rule, one student must do a minor and a major posting for elective(veli mafan de ><) So I changed my posting from Anaes to Paediatric <3 It get approval later on: )
ON MY LAST DAY in forensic department! .....
