和其他三个同大学毕业的人一起到一样的医院工作。不熟。五年在一起,未必了解彼此。是喜是悲,不知道。
我只知道,我不想靠别人。靠他们。
突然觉得好寂寞。
好友说真的,真的很不容易。
目前为止, 住的地方要找找。如果拿不到宿舍。
花费,目前为止是没问题了。
只是文件很多要复印,很多要去证实。
银行那边要拿说明书,照片还要再洗洗。
明天还要打电话去问一些问题。
怎么那么多东西要做?
就像他说,你很多时间哦?想那么多干嘛?
好,就不多想了。
别人对我不好,那是他们的选择。
我人格好是我的事。
他们利用了我,我知道我自己可以决定事情。是他们的失败。不是我的损失。
突然记起, 当你被利用,你是否也在利用别人?
反思。
I'm finally got placement for HOship.
Hosp Kluang it is!
Quite dissapointed that I didnt managed to get my desired hospital.My plan is quite messed up.
But its okay.Readjust my feeling, reset my plan and restart.
Other than settling my personal matter and although ...he didnt say a clear answer for me.But BFF ? Okay :) But I wont wait for u anymore.I want him to be happy.And me too!
Shared the news with people around me, pastors, aunty and some close friends and given some advices by them.Some are positive, some are quite depressing actually.Well, I want to think positive.What does happened is reality but too much worries also wont do me any good favour,right? :)
Hurm...Well personal matter set aside, I have things more important than dat.
Just wonder when will this storm end?
I know soon the rain ends and rainbow will shine.
But now, I just wanna hug myself and cry.I will pick up myself again and putting them into pieces
It's March 12, and I m still waiting "good news" frm KKM.Well, at least on the website saying that those who received 8 Jan-26 feb SPA offer letter will be enrolled in this e-housemen system. The email will be send to personal mailbox seems to be still in progress -..-
(ehouseman.moh.gov.my)
Well, at the meantime, of course, been bugging by other issue as well.It seems every household will have the troublemaker to give u a headache.Mine? My younger brother.
I ll keep praying for God's love and grace can touch his souls.But It seems he's the one who drifts away? Sad because I m not able to persuade/ convince my family members.
Other than that issue, having break at home too long can drive u crazy.Its like I've been stucked in the memories. My brain , my hippocampus( I assumed) recalls old memories.
I miss one of my batchmate.
I miss one of my classmate.
I miss the time we have studygroup together.
I miss the time when we talk and walk at the beach.
I miss we had lunch and sometimes dinner together.
I miss the time when we went oncall together.
I miss the time I laughed at your new hairstyle.
I miss the time when we joked about each other's appearance.
I miss the time when we fight for stupid little things.
I miss the time when we walk together in a shopping mall.
I miss the time you bought me rilakkum and I have to walk with it in shopping mall.
I miss the time when u worry and called me when Im hurting myself.
I miss the time you caress my hair in front of juniors.
I miss the time when u r hungry and I rushed downstairs n give u food.
I miss the time u pass me panadol & ponstan when i m having headache and menstrual pain.
I miss the time u encourage me when I feel I m dumb.
I miss those times.
Girl friend says, you fall in love with him.But Im clearly knowing that I wanna be your best friend and keep supporting u.
But time goes, we left untalk.U smile so bright since u left and carry on like none of these happen.
I keep quiet and drifting away and was hoping u will have happiness as I gave u too much unhappiness in ur life.
When we had graduation dinner, we never talk. When u walk away n towards the girl u admired n took photo, I felt I was right.To leave u alone.I m a burden to u.U r happy without a friend like me.
During convocation, u smile like nothing happens.But I cant facing u. With our parents around, I just cant.And I know it will be the end of us. Its better we keep quiet and leave.Cuz I m a burden to u once.
You must be hating me so much.
I wanna say I m sorry.
And I miss you.My friend.
Too young, too dumb to realised I was once, blessed with one good friend.
Aisehh...cny came today.Wohoo...plenty of mandarin orange brought by little bro given free frm his office hahaha XD
gonna munch dat
Other than dat, lurve bak gua SO MUCHIE ... Wished I could have some tomorrow
The funny thing is : my juniors still thought i'm a chinese n celebrating cny...-.- i dont blame them.just awkward XD
When getting to know my batch is also involved in ,so called " e-HO" which gonna launch in march, I hate it.I m upset.I m dissapointed. I think whole of my life - always been involved any revolution of political changes eg english for math & science , first batch of UniSZA and now...first experimental element in this e -HO.
Well good thing is I can reconsider my choices of hospital.Maybe God dont want me to go those i applied?@.@
HAHA, funny (or not -.-)
But I've waited for so LONG, 6 month period. And at the same time, who grads frm overseas or private uni managed to get job before me.I m really unsatisfied with this.
I hate those studies overseas and come back to fight a place with local students.I seriously HATE YOU. Whoever read this & get offended --up to u? I dont care, I just hate u
Now what's left for me is this thingy. I really need to get into latest intake. No matter what.
Meanwhile, refreshing knowledge. Since skills all gone. After 6 month.
